I AM CRAZY

Ugggg someone keeps pissing me off. I had sooooo much fun at the dance on Friday. Eli actually made everything kinda easier instead of more awkward. I also learned a lot of ways of getting out of dancing with a person hahaha.

I'm wasting more and more time playing an awesome new game called PHASE that I bought for my iPod. I'm kinda depressed that school's almost over but I'm really happy cuz I wanna sleep in and do fun stuff.

But I have this thing that I get really depressed over the summers and kinda shut myself out from the world. So if you don't get a text from me in over a week or something I probably hid my phone somewhere.

I'm kinda time obcessed. That's why I get so depressed over the summers. If I don't get up and go to sleep at around the same time I get all weird. I have to wake up 15 minutes before my alarm clock goes off, I have to close my eyes at 11:11. And on weekends I wake up at 11:47. It's weird and creepy!

Oh, and I also have......8 clocks in my room. And the one on my wrist is exactly 48 seconds ahead of the one on my night stand, which is two minutes and 3 seconds behind the one on my vanity, which is only 17 seconds ahead of the one one on my phone.....it's kinda crazy.

I don't know why I'm saying this now....but I'm going away for camp and vacation and other and stuff and I'm gonna get out of that routine and I don't wanna go there again. It's that weird kind of depression that there's really no reason behind. When you're dying to go to sleep, but are insomniatic to no end.

Oh and another thing that makes me think I'm crazy? I have emotional attatchments to books. Some books I read, hide, and never open it again. Or let anybody touch it or I freak out.

That's not normal, right?

Oh and you know how sometimes I get really tired in Math, I usually am more depressed than tired. That's just the time I realize that somethings wrong. I don't know.

I think this happens to other people but, does anybody ever feel like they're in a dream? And they can't come back? Like you're kinda drunk. I don't know, but that happens a lot when I go to parties or am really happy and stuff.

And I HATE it. I already told people about that, but they think I'm "cooler" when that happens. But it's like I'm in a video game or in a dream or something and I really hate it.

So does any of that happen to you guys?

I think I'm officialy CRAZY