PWEEZ?!?!

Ughhh I am sooooo upset and mad right now. Someone keeps looking over my shoulder whenever I use my computer and another person doesn't let me say a freakin word before interrupting me and I can't trust peole anymore. It's like people are TRYING to piss me off. I don't ususally get that mad but I can't take people not caring what they do. I have some serious self esteem issues and it's all because of the people around me. Some are always bragging how hot they are or always talking bout themselves and others are actually O.K. with calling me ugly or saying I'm secretly a guy and all that stuff. And if you've seen people be mean to me, you know I don't get mad or cry or do something drastic like that but I do need someone to stand up for me and tell them to stop every once in a while cuz i don't think i can take anymore of people calling me ugly. Also some people haven't talked to me at ALL since ThOmAs and I broke up. Isn't that kind of messed up? Also, to anyone reading this I feel hella excluded lately. That you guys don't tell me stuff and hang out with eachother. I know i'm complaining a lot, but FTW i need to get this off my chest. I don't get emotional that often, but when I do cry or get upset, i'm usually with u guys and u don't notice! like in monterey when ppl were playing pictureeka or whatever, and nika and elena were asleep and megan and i were using our ipods? well i was crying.....and actual tears were going down my cheeks. But it would just mean a lot if u guys could stand up for me every once in a while. Sorry bout all the complaing!!

YAY

Can't wait til i get my ITOUCH!!!!! :):):)

FYI

I'M SINGLE!!!!!!.......for two weeks

DEPRESSED

Ya....just read the title. Thomas sent me a text last night saying:

I just neeed some time to think it's toooooo stressful dating you and uhhh we'll talk more on Saturday.

Ugh it was a huge mistake dating him in the first place. On Saturday he'll officialy break up with me and then go back to Emily or someone else less "stressful". Ugh how could I have been so stupid??? I never should have dated him I knew I was gonna get hurt. He's gonna break up with me on Saturday and it's all my fault! He's gonna break up with me on Saturday. He's gonna break up with me on Saturday. He's gonna break up with me on Saturday. HE'S GONNA BREAK UP WITH ME. Mabe I'll just leave my phone at home and tell him it's over when I get back. Why am I freaking out anyway I thought I didn't like him. Ehhhhhhhhh. I didn't sleep a wink last night.

******HYPER*******

hehehehehe I'm really giddy now. I'm going to MONTEREY on like Friday and Im gonna b in Megans car :) :) :) and I'm texting Thomas right now. ANNNNDDDDD I'm listening to Colorado Sunrise so I'm super happy and giddy and hyper. And u shud c how fast I'm typing right now it's crazy. I'm SUPER hyper and happy :) I'm gonna go on a walk or something now. so damn happy for no particuar reason :D

c ya peeps, KittyKath9

I AM CRAZY

Ugggg someone keeps pissing me off. I had sooooo much fun at the dance on Friday. Eli actually made everything kinda easier instead of more awkward. I also learned a lot of ways of getting out of dancing with a person hahaha.

I'm wasting more and more time playing an awesome new game called PHASE that I bought for my iPod. I'm kinda depressed that school's almost over but I'm really happy cuz I wanna sleep in and do fun stuff.

But I have this thing that I get really depressed over the summers and kinda shut myself out from the world. So if you don't get a text from me in over a week or something I probably hid my phone somewhere.

I'm kinda time obcessed. That's why I get so depressed over the summers. If I don't get up and go to sleep at around the same time I get all weird. I have to wake up 15 minutes before my alarm clock goes off, I have to close my eyes at 11:11. And on weekends I wake up at 11:47. It's weird and creepy!

Oh, and I also have......8 clocks in my room. And the one on my wrist is exactly 48 seconds ahead of the one on my night stand, which is two minutes and 3 seconds behind the one on my vanity, which is only 17 seconds ahead of the one one on my phone.....it's kinda crazy.

I don't know why I'm saying this now....but I'm going away for camp and vacation and other and stuff and I'm gonna get out of that routine and I don't wanna go there again. It's that weird kind of depression that there's really no reason behind. When you're dying to go to sleep, but are insomniatic to no end.

Oh and another thing that makes me think I'm crazy? I have emotional attatchments to books. Some books I read, hide, and never open it again. Or let anybody touch it or I freak out.

That's not normal, right?

Oh and you know how sometimes I get really tired in Math, I usually am more depressed than tired. That's just the time I realize that somethings wrong. I don't know.

I think this happens to other people but, does anybody ever feel like they're in a dream? And they can't come back? Like you're kinda drunk. I don't know, but that happens a lot when I go to parties or am really happy and stuff.

And I HATE it. I already told people about that, but they think I'm "cooler" when that happens. But it's like I'm in a video game or in a dream or something and I really hate it.

So does any of that happen to you guys?

I think I'm officialy CRAZY

Contact

Hey read it and comment or something!
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Yo peeps.

Anybody wonderin what the title means? It's an EMO-ticon. Can't you tell that it's an emo kid? Lol maybe not. But watev. Now onto the serious stuff......not really but watev //_^ (That was a happy EMO-ticon):

I got my hair cut on...Friday? It's kinda short for me and I was wondering what to do with it. I just straightened it and kinda "flicked" it on the ends. I realized that I looked kinda emo hahaha. And then I added a clip-in color streak and got the total look. If you really know me, you know I could never be emo. But tomorrow, I'm going black. Let's see if I can pull it off. Eyeliner mabye?

Lol, c ya, KittyKath9

R.I.P. Tyra Show!!!!

SO DEPRESSED! The Tyra Show is ending! This is its last week. I've been watching it for years :(

I Heart the TRUMPET :)

Ok before I start, lemme tell you that I will probably swear in this post too. In case you haven't noticed, I kinda swear now. If you're offended or whatever, just don't read it. And BTW when Eli tells you he can teach you to swear and show you how to stop too DON'T believe him. It's very hard to stop once you've started. So here it goes:

Yo peeps

Shane Dawson is really hot and you should watch his videos. Unless you don't like people swearing (then why are you even reading this?). If you don't like him just shut down this window. Right. Now. Jk but seriusly you should like him just cuz he's funny even if you don't think he's hot ;)

And (DAMMIT!) I'm tired of people that call themselves your friends and then treat you meanly or hurt you in some way. That still makes me really upset. I'm trying to ignore those feelings and remain friends with the person, but I truly hope she realizes what she's done without me telling her. And all the drama in the world just seems like BS now and I wish people would knock it off.

But I'm also super happy and excited cuz I'm finally getting a TRUMPET!!! :) and am super happy that I'm finally gonna learn to play it. I think I'm just gonna keep playing the flute in band, but really wanna learn the trumpet for some unknown reason. That dream just made me really want to...Incase you don't talk to me enough to hear about the dream it was just about me becoming first trumpet and then turning to Eli and saying "Ha ha" to his face. It's a gratifying feeling. I think we all know that's never gonna happen but it's an interesting idea to learn.

I'm loving my phone. Still have'nt gotten over the NPD. Too bad there's no such thing as a "New phone smell" :(

I'm not sure if anybody besides Justice knows what this means, but my favorite, awesomest, coolest, quote is

"Fly errr" hahaha.

Love ya guys, keep the BS in your world to a minimum, bye.

-KittyKath9

IGUANA HUG!!!!

SO FREAKIN TIRED OF DRAMA. I wanna hug Thomas right now and tell Megan and Shoshi all my problems and tell me that it's gonna be okay. And I want someone to tell me I'm not crazy, and for someone to hit me upside the head til I get over Eli.

Random Thoughts

Yo.

I have NPD (new phone disease) again.

When people ask me how old I am, I still say 12 (I'm 13 now) so remind me.

And...I feel excluded :(

WATCH IT!

I am officially obcessed with ASTEROID GALAXY TOUR. Watch The Golden Age it's hella trippy.

Questions anyone?

I Miss You

This is my favorite song. So read it, listen to it,and love it or I will hunt you down!

Mm-Hmm

For anybody wondering, right now I'm as depressed as Eli is sweet..

NOT MUCH!!!

Lol

Peace out, KittyKath9

P.S. I also will say yo and not care if I sound ghetto from now on!

Hooky plans cancled

Yo.

We changed seats on Friday and I'm happy and looking forward to sitting in our new seats but I'm so not looking forward to it too. Nika's awesome and now I get to sit infront of her, but with her comes her partner...and her partner can be...distracting. Last time I sat at his table my grades dropped and I nearly failed a test. And in P.E. whenever my team is playing against his I suddenly become bad and klutzy. Especially hockey, which I'm usually good at. I think you all know who that person is. But, he also makes me, and the people around him happy. Mostly by being an annoying goofball, but it's funny, right?

Oh and another thing, if you're discussing plans to play hooky, make sure you can SPELL hooky! hahahaha.

Love,KittyKath9

Goodbye Pink Sunglasses

I feel like I just took off some pink sunglasses.

Explanation: People kept saying who I liked is a jerk and stuff and I finally see it. Wow...

Angered

Ugh I'm so mad because my cousin just ruined a really good song by singing along to it.

Heyyyyy

Yo.

I'm oddly happy today...has anybody ever had FroYo from a coffee cup? No? Well you should. It's great. Did you know that you can eat Lavender (the flower)? Well you can. And it's delish.

Some phrases I like that I will try to use more:

"...and some change"; Example: "What time is it?" "Four o'clock and some change."

"Sup"...it speaks for itself.

"Wowza" I kinda stopped saying it in the 5th grade...

Kinda a random post...I've been spending a lot of time with Megan :)

TTYL, [If you rly know me, I shouldn't have to put my name here]

And some faces to enlighten your day:

:) :( =0 =) =( => +) BD :P XD :X :D ;) ;D

Love you too!

Yo.

Hahahaha. Somebody just said "I hate you" and I'm like "Awwww love you too!". It's been such a funny day. I love it!

I wrote this at...12:20. Wow I'm tired.

Just lettin ya know

I am so confused!!!!

Ya......

All is fair in love and war.

MLaL

Yo.
Don't you just hate it when you give a big,motivational speech, and then someone just swears or says "watev".

I also realized that I just wasted 3 hours of my life watching "My Life as Liz". It's an awesome show!

ADDICTED

I just found out I'm obcessive...and addicted!

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Happppppyyyyyyy

Yo.

Wow...right now I am ECSTATIC and totally happy.

But...I don't like seeing my friends go through drama and I miss MEGAN SO MUCH! You never know how good you got it til you lost it...

But WHOO! :) :) :)

L8R, KittyKath9

Wow....

see more Friends of Irony

Drama and Rootbeer eyes

Yo.

Whoa! There's been a lot of drama lately. I don't like drama anywhere outside of a theatre. I feel bad for people. I don't like watching it, I can't imagine being in the middle of it. I got to hear both sides of both stories today and I am still majorly confused. I've noticed that all the people involved have gone through stages:

1. Anger
2. Depression
3. Not caring
4. ??? Soon to come ???

Oh, and I like the person with rootbeer eyes if you know who that is!

C Ya, KittyKath9

Canada, Snoop Dogg, and Gravity Testing

Yo. So Megan slept over last night...it was awesome. This is the convo we were having at like 2 in the morning:

Me: I wish there was someone to text right now.
Megan: Eli?
Me: Nah...forget it.

We had to play volleyball in the backyard so we wouldn't run over "Snoop Dogg". And then the moms were having "nurse talk" while we were watching "Little Miss Perfect". We kept screaming,"Stop talking bout us like we're not here!"-total ignoration on their part.

Oh, and my fave video of all time:

Ellen: New Jersey is one of the 13 colonies, name the rest of them.
Snooki: All of them:
Ellen: Yah.
Snooki: Ok...Pennsylvania...Massachusets...Canada?

WRONG!!!

and...

Ellen: New Jersey's nickname is the Garden State. What's the Olive Garden's Slogan?
Pauly D: "We don't pump gas,we pump our fist!"

WRONG!!! But hilarious.

And my favorite quote of all time:

"I didn't just trip right now, I was testing gravity...it works." -Megan

Snoop Dogg!!!

Snoop Dogg??

Modern Surfing

And oh yah, check this out: Modern Surfing.Brought to you by me!

Yay yay yay yay

Happy :> :> I'm having someone sleep over for the first time ever tomorrow! Whoo!

Jukebox!

Listen to mine then create your own!

www.Jango.com - Internet Radio

Orange!

Oh and I changed the layout so there's more orange. Whoop-ee-doo *She said sarcasticly*.

THIRTEEN?! Seriously?

I'm gonna be a THIRTEENTH wheel!!!! :( :( :(

One year later...

Yo.
So tomorrow it will be a whole year since I came to the school. A lot of my friends are sick. So they probably won't be there tomorrow :( I'm really tired. And wanna go to sleep. V-Day is coming up :)/:( Don't really know how I feel bout it. I guess it's kinda cool this year. Today just hasn't been a good today. I don't like some people rite now :( I'm emotionally and physically tired. I just don't wanna deal with it. It's only 9:06...I'm gonna crash. If I weren't so tired, I would be furious. But whatever. I don't wanna go to school tomorrow because then I'll see people I don't really wanna see, but I wanna see my friends. And Megan might be coming back! Whoo! I suck. I seriously can't do anything right. What a great way to celebrate the anniversery! *She said sarcasticly* Bye! TTYL

Soda=Hiccups

Yo. So last night was Nika's B-Day party. It was really fun but there was some drama. I'm not gonna get specific. People were depressed, and upset, and just plain mad. So when I left the party, I was picking up the pieces. It was already 11:30 but I was talking to people. I always pick up the pieces. And I guess it's starting to feel sorta like a job. I can't be upset. There's no time for it. When's the last time I really blew up over something? Or the last time I actually cried? I don't know. I'm not sure if I can anymore. I don't let my emotions show and I guess I should more often. People don't know what I'm thinking or how I feel cuz I always try to cover it up. Well screw that!
And I had 5 sips of soda last night. Only five! But I don't usually drink soda. And when I got home-darn it-I got the hiccups. I hate the hiccups! I get them hours at a time. I also get them when I laugh too much so that's a possibility... But I didn't like it! And what is up with Elena?

That's all folks. C ya!

Hypochondriac

Hypochondriac

Another poem I like...Megan, you probably know y I liked the first one. I'm not so sure about this one.

Rain, Ghosts, and Hilary Duff

It's raining! I love rain! But it's not so joyful this time with the cliffs in Pacifica. It's raining really hard at my house. My backyard has a little flood problem. I'm hoping we lose the power at my house. I love blackouts! Not sure why.

If you know me, I've probably told you that I have a song stuck in my head 100% of the time. So waking up to a song playing in my head is not unusual. I don't really pay attention to it. But this morning the rain woke me up. I got out of bed, rushed to the window, opened the curtains and the blinds, and finally the windows themselves and just sat. Staring, for 10 minutes. I got up, brushed my teeth and had breakfast and all that stuff but midway through breakfast I realized what song had been playing. "Coming Clean," Hilary Duff. The song was ancient. But it was about rain. It was really weird...but awesome!

Oh and I was watching TV early Saturday morning and True Jackson: VP was on. I watched it and it was the episode where Ryan and Jimmy were making a horror movie. They're not that good, lemme tell you. But the freaky part was when the replayed the video of one of the scenes. And there was an actual ghost in it. Ghost kinda creep me out. So I felt like a baby, not moving, fixated on the little screen. I did not move or say a thing. But then they said, "Wait a minute, what is she doing now?" Wanna know what she was doing? She was dancing. I was so scared, and then the ridiculousness set in so I laughed out loud. It was just so funny, how something so silly had freaked me out. It felt like I was laughing at another person but really, it was just myself. I like laughing at myself :)

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totalified

Yo. Skating was so much fun last night! But I was lke an hour and a half late because I had to be in the hospital. :( It was fun and Tik-Tok came on and the image of Garry saying, "This is my jam!" popped into my head. LOL. But I was wearing little socks so now my ankles are like beat up. I want to go again! But if I do, I have to beg Megan to come. I fell and I brought Justice down with me :( I guess it's a good thing that he started laughing. Me=Klutz. I said hi to Leo and the poor lil guy fell! He's sooo adorable. And apparently parents know my names! Yay people know me! I was supposed to go to a party today but it got cancled so I'm just hangin. I'm texting Eli and Justice...so I'm happy. Wanna text Megan...answer Megan!!! I'm finishing up my book and I don't like finishing books! Especially when you really like them! Kk, bye

O and yesterday, when were going around looking at the Europe Placards, I was talking to Slonne and she said a sentence regularly and then said it like a valley girl. We were laughing about and I didn't know what to call it so I said she was talking all, "totalified". Justice and Tony thought I said, "Tonyfied" and gave me funny looks. Especially Tony. Did you guys see Justice and Garry fighting? It was pretty funny...Slonne and I were like,"Whoa...What's going on between you two?"

:) and :(

Things that make me happy:
1.The color orange!* :) 2.Talking to my friends
3.Talking to my RANDOM friends!
(u guys) 4. Texting Eli (wow)
5. Waking up :) 6. Reading late at nite.


Things that DON'T make me happy:
1. Going to the hospital! :(
2. Doctors calling at 11:00 PM!
3. Not being able to cry
when I want to :....(
4. Being insomniatic over
something silly


*For the graph thing in Math, Hans suggested the question "How many people hate the color orange?". It's ok if you do, but don't say it infront of me! I'm not sure why that made me mad...

Whatever

My life keeps getting better. (NOT). Where's the part in the script that I get a break? Can I skip over to that?

My first 2010 post!

My resolution:To stop writing 2009 on my papers instead of 2010!!!

Yes! I get to hang out with my friends in a little more than an hour!

I hope everybody had a Happy New Year!I didn't watch much New Years Eve TV. I was watching "World's Dumbest Partiers" 'til a minute to 12:00.

GTG, bye!