PWEEZ?!?!

Ughhh I am sooooo upset and mad right now. Someone keeps looking over my shoulder whenever I use my computer and another person doesn't let me say a freakin word before interrupting me and I can't trust peole anymore. It's like people are TRYING to piss me off. I don't ususally get that mad but I can't take people not caring what they do. I have some serious self esteem issues and it's all because of the people around me. Some are always bragging how hot they are or always talking bout themselves and others are actually O.K. with calling me ugly or saying I'm secretly a guy and all that stuff. And if you've seen people be mean to me, you know I don't get mad or cry or do something drastic like that but I do need someone to stand up for me and tell them to stop every once in a while cuz i don't think i can take anymore of people calling me ugly. Also some people haven't talked to me at ALL since ThOmAs and I broke up. Isn't that kind of messed up? Also, to anyone reading this I feel hella excluded lately. That you guys don't tell me stuff and hang out with eachother. I know i'm complaining a lot, but FTW i need to get this off my chest. I don't get emotional that often, but when I do cry or get upset, i'm usually with u guys and u don't notice! like in monterey when ppl were playing pictureeka or whatever, and nika and elena were asleep and megan and i were using our ipods? well i was crying.....and actual tears were going down my cheeks. But it would just mean a lot if u guys could stand up for me every once in a while. Sorry bout all the complaing!!