PWEEZ?!?!

Ughhh I am sooooo upset and mad right now. Someone keeps looking over my shoulder whenever I use my computer and another person doesn't let me say a freakin word before interrupting me and I can't trust peole anymore. It's like people are TRYING to piss me off. I don't ususally get that mad but I can't take people not caring what they do. I have some serious self esteem issues and it's all because of the people around me. Some are always bragging how hot they are or always talking bout themselves and others are actually O.K. with calling me ugly or saying I'm secretly a guy and all that stuff. And if you've seen people be mean to me, you know I don't get mad or cry or do something drastic like that but I do need someone to stand up for me and tell them to stop every once in a while cuz i don't think i can take anymore of people calling me ugly. Also some people haven't talked to me at ALL since ThOmAs and I broke up. Isn't that kind of messed up? Also, to anyone reading this I feel hella excluded lately. That you guys don't tell me stuff and hang out with eachother. I know i'm complaining a lot, but FTW i need to get this off my chest. I don't get emotional that often, but when I do cry or get upset, i'm usually with u guys and u don't notice! like in monterey when ppl were playing pictureeka or whatever, and nika and elena were asleep and megan and i were using our ipods? well i was crying.....and actual tears were going down my cheeks. But it would just mean a lot if u guys could stand up for me every once in a while. Sorry bout all the complaing!!

YAY

Can't wait til i get my ITOUCH!!!!! :):):)

FYI

I'M SINGLE!!!!!!.......for two weeks

DEPRESSED

Ya....just read the title. Thomas sent me a text last night saying:

I just neeed some time to think it's toooooo stressful dating you and uhhh we'll talk more on Saturday.

Ugh it was a huge mistake dating him in the first place. On Saturday he'll officialy break up with me and then go back to Emily or someone else less "stressful". Ugh how could I have been so stupid??? I never should have dated him I knew I was gonna get hurt. He's gonna break up with me on Saturday and it's all my fault! He's gonna break up with me on Saturday. He's gonna break up with me on Saturday. He's gonna break up with me on Saturday. HE'S GONNA BREAK UP WITH ME. Mabe I'll just leave my phone at home and tell him it's over when I get back. Why am I freaking out anyway I thought I didn't like him. Ehhhhhhhhh. I didn't sleep a wink last night.

******HYPER*******

hehehehehe I'm really giddy now. I'm going to MONTEREY on like Friday and Im gonna b in Megans car :) :) :) and I'm texting Thomas right now. ANNNNDDDDD I'm listening to Colorado Sunrise so I'm super happy and giddy and hyper. And u shud c how fast I'm typing right now it's crazy. I'm SUPER hyper and happy :) I'm gonna go on a walk or something now. so damn happy for no particuar reason :D

c ya peeps, KittyKath9

I AM CRAZY

Ugggg someone keeps pissing me off. I had sooooo much fun at the dance on Friday. Eli actually made everything kinda easier instead of more awkward. I also learned a lot of ways of getting out of dancing with a person hahaha.

I'm wasting more and more time playing an awesome new game called PHASE that I bought for my iPod. I'm kinda depressed that school's almost over but I'm really happy cuz I wanna sleep in and do fun stuff.

But I have this thing that I get really depressed over the summers and kinda shut myself out from the world. So if you don't get a text from me in over a week or something I probably hid my phone somewhere.

I'm kinda time obcessed. That's why I get so depressed over the summers. If I don't get up and go to sleep at around the same time I get all weird. I have to wake up 15 minutes before my alarm clock goes off, I have to close my eyes at 11:11. And on weekends I wake up at 11:47. It's weird and creepy!

Oh, and I also have......8 clocks in my room. And the one on my wrist is exactly 48 seconds ahead of the one on my night stand, which is two minutes and 3 seconds behind the one on my vanity, which is only 17 seconds ahead of the one one on my phone.....it's kinda crazy.

I don't know why I'm saying this now....but I'm going away for camp and vacation and other and stuff and I'm gonna get out of that routine and I don't wanna go there again. It's that weird kind of depression that there's really no reason behind. When you're dying to go to sleep, but are insomniatic to no end.

Oh and another thing that makes me think I'm crazy? I have emotional attatchments to books. Some books I read, hide, and never open it again. Or let anybody touch it or I freak out.

That's not normal, right?

Oh and you know how sometimes I get really tired in Math, I usually am more depressed than tired. That's just the time I realize that somethings wrong. I don't know.

I think this happens to other people but, does anybody ever feel like they're in a dream? And they can't come back? Like you're kinda drunk. I don't know, but that happens a lot when I go to parties or am really happy and stuff.

And I HATE it. I already told people about that, but they think I'm "cooler" when that happens. But it's like I'm in a video game or in a dream or something and I really hate it.

So does any of that happen to you guys?

I think I'm officialy CRAZY

Contact

Hey read it and comment or something!
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Yo peeps.

Anybody wonderin what the title means? It's an EMO-ticon. Can't you tell that it's an emo kid? Lol maybe not. But watev. Now onto the serious stuff......not really but watev //_^ (That was a happy EMO-ticon):

I got my hair cut on...Friday? It's kinda short for me and I was wondering what to do with it. I just straightened it and kinda "flicked" it on the ends. I realized that I looked kinda emo hahaha. And then I added a clip-in color streak and got the total look. If you really know me, you know I could never be emo. But tomorrow, I'm going black. Let's see if I can pull it off. Eyeliner mabye?

Lol, c ya, KittyKath9

R.I.P. Tyra Show!!!!

SO DEPRESSED! The Tyra Show is ending! This is its last week. I've been watching it for years :(

I Heart the TRUMPET :)

Ok before I start, lemme tell you that I will probably swear in this post too. In case you haven't noticed, I kinda swear now. If you're offended or whatever, just don't read it. And BTW when Eli tells you he can teach you to swear and show you how to stop too DON'T believe him. It's very hard to stop once you've started. So here it goes:

Yo peeps

Shane Dawson is really hot and you should watch his videos. Unless you don't like people swearing (then why are you even reading this?). If you don't like him just shut down this window. Right. Now. Jk but seriusly you should like him just cuz he's funny even if you don't think he's hot ;)

And (DAMMIT!) I'm tired of people that call themselves your friends and then treat you meanly or hurt you in some way. That still makes me really upset. I'm trying to ignore those feelings and remain friends with the person, but I truly hope she realizes what she's done without me telling her. And all the drama in the world just seems like BS now and I wish people would knock it off.

But I'm also super happy and excited cuz I'm finally getting a TRUMPET!!! :) and am super happy that I'm finally gonna learn to play it. I think I'm just gonna keep playing the flute in band, but really wanna learn the trumpet for some unknown reason. That dream just made me really want to...Incase you don't talk to me enough to hear about the dream it was just about me becoming first trumpet and then turning to Eli and saying "Ha ha" to his face. It's a gratifying feeling. I think we all know that's never gonna happen but it's an interesting idea to learn.

I'm loving my phone. Still have'nt gotten over the NPD. Too bad there's no such thing as a "New phone smell" :(

I'm not sure if anybody besides Justice knows what this means, but my favorite, awesomest, coolest, quote is

"Fly errr" hahaha.

Love ya guys, keep the BS in your world to a minimum, bye.

-KittyKath9

IGUANA HUG!!!!

SO FREAKIN TIRED OF DRAMA. I wanna hug Thomas right now and tell Megan and Shoshi all my problems and tell me that it's gonna be okay. And I want someone to tell me I'm not crazy, and for someone to hit me upside the head til I get over Eli.

Random Thoughts

Yo.

I have NPD (new phone disease) again.

When people ask me how old I am, I still say 12 (I'm 13 now) so remind me.

And...I feel excluded :(

WATCH IT!

I am officially obcessed with ASTEROID GALAXY TOUR. Watch The Golden Age it's hella trippy.

Questions anyone?

I Miss You

This is my favorite song. So read it, listen to it,and love it or I will hunt you down!

Mm-Hmm

For anybody wondering, right now I'm as depressed as Eli is sweet..

NOT MUCH!!!

Lol

Peace out, KittyKath9

P.S. I also will say yo and not care if I sound ghetto from now on!

Hooky plans cancled

Yo.

We changed seats on Friday and I'm happy and looking forward to sitting in our new seats but I'm so not looking forward to it too. Nika's awesome and now I get to sit infront of her, but with her comes her partner...and her partner can be...distracting. Last time I sat at his table my grades dropped and I nearly failed a test. And in P.E. whenever my team is playing against his I suddenly become bad and klutzy. Especially hockey, which I'm usually good at. I think you all know who that person is. But, he also makes me, and the people around him happy. Mostly by being an annoying goofball, but it's funny, right?

Oh and another thing, if you're discussing plans to play hooky, make sure you can SPELL hooky! hahahaha.

Love,KittyKath9

Goodbye Pink Sunglasses

I feel like I just took off some pink sunglasses.

Explanation: People kept saying who I liked is a jerk and stuff and I finally see it. Wow...

Angered

Ugh I'm so mad because my cousin just ruined a really good song by singing along to it.

Heyyyyy

Yo.

I'm oddly happy today...has anybody ever had FroYo from a coffee cup? No? Well you should. It's great. Did you know that you can eat Lavender (the flower)? Well you can. And it's delish.

Some phrases I like that I will try to use more:

"...and some change"; Example: "What time is it?" "Four o'clock and some change."

"Sup"...it speaks for itself.

"Wowza" I kinda stopped saying it in the 5th grade...

Kinda a random post...I've been spending a lot of time with Megan :)

TTYL, [If you rly know me, I shouldn't have to put my name here]

And some faces to enlighten your day:

:) :( =0 =) =( => +) BD :P XD :X :D ;) ;D